Hey blog, it's been long since I've updated you. Nice to see you again. I guess I'll talk something random. =)
Many things can happen in such a short time. Every minute, every second is crucial in our life. If you miss any moment of it, you'll never be able to get back to it. There are many people who entered your life, becoming a part in your life and leave whenever they want. It may have hurt much but you are the main lead in your story. People don't just stay around you. They have things to accomplish and they are busy chasing after their dreams. So, why stop? Carry on with your daily life and show to the world that you are worth it. Do some useful things that can contribute to the society including the one you love. Of course, easy said than work it out.
In every path that you take, there'll be obstruction along the way. Don't expect it to be smooth. There are no shortcuts in succeeding. To succeed, you will have to put in lots of effort and don't take things for granted. As the saying goes, there are no free meals in this world. Even if you did get free meals, still, there must be something in exchange for that.
Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference. =D What you sow is what you reap.
I guess I'll end here for now. Bye, blog, I'll update you again when I'm free.
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Treasure people beside you =)
People only realized how much they need someone when the ones that they love left them. This happen to me now. Not that I didn't treasure my time with the one I love, it's just that we always argue when we're together. Arguing, affects my emotion too deep and made me suffering mentally. When this situation happen, I wish I can be alone. I wish I need not suffer all this pain.
I always think that I could live without him, surely I can, but I won't be happy. Losing someone is not an easy task to cope with. When he left me, I don't know why I feel alone and felt like he has gone for a long time when he just texted me a minute ago. Maybe the way we communicate is by arguing with each other? I had always told myself that if my partner left me, I would never need a new partner anymore. Love hurts, love is pain. Why hurting yourself when you know that it hurts?
Every human is afraid of loneliness. Everyone needs someone that could understand them. Like how I need him when I'm lonely. When he was not beside me, I had always want him to be by my side. When he was beside me, we keep arguing that I wish I could stay out of his sight. I didn't want to face the music.
How I wish we could be like other couples. I want us to be 'love birds' not 'angry birds'. Sometimes, I feel disappointed because when I'm feeling down, I still need to face the music. I don't need someone that could understand me, I need someone that could love me to the max. I need someone to encourage me, giving me supports and happiness.
Frankly, I don't need someone rich, handsome or talented. I only need someone to hug me or pat me when I'm sad but of course my tears will not stop rolling down because I feel touched. I can learn anything that my partner likes except things that I dislike such as Chinese poetry which I understand nothing. Something practical like learning how to take good pictures, sewing, cooking or even martial arts. Apparently, I can learn anything practical but not theory. Everyone has their own weakness.
A note for my honey: (You know who you are ) *wink*
Dear Water Elephant, (direct translate =P)
Please don't always argue with me because of a small matter, can you? If you don't like people to treat you this way, don't treat others this way. If others make fun of you, just ignore them. Just like how I ignore those people in Primary 6. =) We show them our ability not strength. However if what others said is the truth, don't argue with them. Still remember the nilai sikap keterbukaan? Accept those critics to improve ourselves. Don't make a fuss over something that is not worth.
You're an intelligent boy. To be exact, a genius. You may be able to understand what people don't understand. You have to understand normal people like me. Everyone wants to be wise and intelligent. You said you're poor. People make fun of you because you're poor. That is because they don't understand the feeling of being poor. Just like how you don't understand the feeling of stupid people.
As you said, life is fair. It is just that the mixture is different. You're a mature guy now. Be optimistic and discard all your pessimistic mind. It's time to turn over a new leaf. I really do care about you and love you.
Honey, I'm waiting for you to come back. =) And I realized how much I need you. As the saying goes, absence makes the heart grew fonder. <3
Your love,
Water Pig <3
I always think that I could live without him, surely I can, but I won't be happy. Losing someone is not an easy task to cope with. When he left me, I don't know why I feel alone and felt like he has gone for a long time when he just texted me a minute ago. Maybe the way we communicate is by arguing with each other? I had always told myself that if my partner left me, I would never need a new partner anymore. Love hurts, love is pain. Why hurting yourself when you know that it hurts?
Every human is afraid of loneliness. Everyone needs someone that could understand them. Like how I need him when I'm lonely. When he was not beside me, I had always want him to be by my side. When he was beside me, we keep arguing that I wish I could stay out of his sight. I didn't want to face the music.
How I wish we could be like other couples. I want us to be 'love birds' not 'angry birds'. Sometimes, I feel disappointed because when I'm feeling down, I still need to face the music. I don't need someone that could understand me, I need someone that could love me to the max. I need someone to encourage me, giving me supports and happiness.
Frankly, I don't need someone rich, handsome or talented. I only need someone to hug me or pat me when I'm sad but of course my tears will not stop rolling down because I feel touched. I can learn anything that my partner likes except things that I dislike such as Chinese poetry which I understand nothing. Something practical like learning how to take good pictures, sewing, cooking or even martial arts. Apparently, I can learn anything practical but not theory. Everyone has their own weakness.
A note for my honey: (You know who you are ) *wink*
Dear Water Elephant, (direct translate =P)
Please don't always argue with me because of a small matter, can you? If you don't like people to treat you this way, don't treat others this way. If others make fun of you, just ignore them. Just like how I ignore those people in Primary 6. =) We show them our ability not strength. However if what others said is the truth, don't argue with them. Still remember the nilai sikap keterbukaan? Accept those critics to improve ourselves. Don't make a fuss over something that is not worth.
You're an intelligent boy. To be exact, a genius. You may be able to understand what people don't understand. You have to understand normal people like me. Everyone wants to be wise and intelligent. You said you're poor. People make fun of you because you're poor. That is because they don't understand the feeling of being poor. Just like how you don't understand the feeling of stupid people.
As you said, life is fair. It is just that the mixture is different. You're a mature guy now. Be optimistic and discard all your pessimistic mind. It's time to turn over a new leaf. I really do care about you and love you.
Honey, I'm waiting for you to come back. =) And I realized how much I need you. As the saying goes, absence makes the heart grew fonder. <3
Your love,
Water Pig <3
Thursday, May 3, 2012
I had always wish to become a better person, living my own happy life, doing stuff that I loved
and try to help others. Unfortunately, my wish just don't come true. I wish to become a successful
person in the future and live a happy life.
The world has changed. Everything change. The society nowadays are materialistic. Everything is
associated with money. Money, money, money. Even woo-ing a girl needs money. Is wealth that
important compared to our health and happiness? The moral of the society is deteriorated although our
country has high technology and is far ahead compare to some country.
For me, I just want to live a simple life and find a job that I loved. Seriously, I don't really care if
my partner is not as wealthy as me or can't afford to buy things for me. I just need someone to love me
and care for me. When I am feeling down, I wish to be cheered rather than facing the music from my
partner.
Today, I heard an old chinese song from the radio. The song was quite famous but I know the
lyrics only today.
你总是心太软心太软, 独自一个人流泪到天亮, 你无怨无悔的爱着那个人,我知道你根本
没那麽坚强你总是心太软, 心太软把所有问题都自己扛,相爱总是简单相处太难,不是你的就别
再勉强.
This song is somehow makes me feel better when I sang it out loud. I'll stop here. =) Will be
writing another post soon.
and try to help others. Unfortunately, my wish just don't come true. I wish to become a successful
person in the future and live a happy life.
The world has changed. Everything change. The society nowadays are materialistic. Everything is
associated with money. Money, money, money. Even woo-ing a girl needs money. Is wealth that
important compared to our health and happiness? The moral of the society is deteriorated although our
country has high technology and is far ahead compare to some country.
For me, I just want to live a simple life and find a job that I loved. Seriously, I don't really care if
my partner is not as wealthy as me or can't afford to buy things for me. I just need someone to love me
and care for me. When I am feeling down, I wish to be cheered rather than facing the music from my
partner.
Today, I heard an old chinese song from the radio. The song was quite famous but I know the
lyrics only today.
你总是心太软心太软, 独自一个人流泪到天亮, 你无怨无悔的爱着那个人,我知道你根本
没那麽坚强你总是心太软, 心太软把所有问题都自己扛,相爱总是简单相处太难,不是你的就别
再勉强.
This song is somehow makes me feel better when I sang it out loud. I'll stop here. =) Will be
writing another post soon.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
A memorable day
Yesterday was so much fun. I wonder when can I have so much fun again. I never had an outing with my friends till I reached Form 4. Friends are important in our life. They make us smile when we feel down. How I wish I could hang out with my friends whenever I feel like doing so.
Yesterday, I was going to the beach with Terence, Eiwenne, Florenno and two girls from St. Jo whom I didn't know. We were taking pictures in order to complete our folio.
After taking pictures, we played at the beach. It was suggested by me beforehand. Hahaha... Playful girl. =P I love playing water because I'm so-called 'water'. Nah, just joking. =D I was glad that Terence was coming because I had never been to beach with him. Besides, he's the only one who's playing water with me. The others just play some games on the beach. Example:
Teng-teng/ketinting in BM
The sea water is very salty. I drank quite a large amount of sea water. My hands and legs were painful when I played with the sea water. However, I ignored it because I was having lots of fun. The strong tides of the wave made both of us playful. We tried to resist the force acting on us.
We're getting tired after playing and splashing each other. Went to the toilet for a shower. Fortunately, the place for showering is not disgusting. I'm fear of lizards faeces. Yucks.... I have a hard time washing my clothes as it was covered with mud.
I'm stop here. Not having much time to update my blog.
Yesterday, I was going to the beach with Terence, Eiwenne, Florenno and two girls from St. Jo whom I didn't know. We were taking pictures in order to complete our folio.
After taking pictures, we played at the beach. It was suggested by me beforehand. Hahaha... Playful girl. =P I love playing water because I'm so-called 'water'. Nah, just joking. =D I was glad that Terence was coming because I had never been to beach with him. Besides, he's the only one who's playing water with me. The others just play some games on the beach. Example:
The sea water is very salty. I drank quite a large amount of sea water.
We're getting tired after playing and splashing each other. Went to the toilet for a shower. Fortunately, the place for showering is not disgusting. I'm fear of lizards faeces. Yucks.... I have a hard time washing my clothes as it was covered with mud.
I'm stop here. Not having much time to update my blog.
Sunday, December 25, 2011
25-12-2011
Today is a special day, where people say Jesus was born on this day. But somehow, it doesn't feel special to me because every day is special to me. This is what someone told me. Every day in our life is a special day. =D
Something bad happened to me in the morning though. I could say that it is the worst and the best day of my life. I made someone waited for half an hour. I couldn't wake up as I was too tired, even my alarm doesn't wake me up. When I wake up, everything was in a rush. Of course, I feel guilty, really. I hate people waiting for me. And somehow, something that never pop up in my mind occured. Let just keep it as a secret. =P
Went to the airport with Terence this morning as Joanne, one of my classmate is leaving. And guess what?? I saw Mdm
Rajwant, our form teacher, with her daughter and son, Aastik. Hahahaha!! Out of my expectation!
After bidding farewell to her, we went to the Public Park aka Taman Awam. Waiting for my cousin to come, we walked on the bridge. I was scared of height but surprisingly I wasn't scared at all. Not a bit. Waiting and waiting..... Finally, my cousin arrived. Finding her was difficult as I don't really know the way. Thanks to Terence, we found her. Ate some food that her family made, including her. It was quite nice except for the chicken that my cousin made. It was okay but the gravy was salty.
We play for a while and went to Merdeka Mall. It was 12.30 pm. We choose a movie to watch. Mission Impossible!! Sounds interesting, isn't it? The movie is thrilling. I enjoy it very much. Especially when it come to the climax and you have a shoulder to lean on. =D
Around 4 something, we went back. It was a great day. I think I never had so much fun before. Happy moments flies. I'll kept it to my heart and remember it forever.
Something bad happened to me in the morning though. I could say that it is the worst and the best day of my life. I made someone waited for half an hour. I couldn't wake up as I was too tired, even my alarm doesn't wake me up. When I wake up, everything was in a rush. Of course, I feel guilty, really. I hate people waiting for me. And somehow, something that never pop up in my mind occured. Let just keep it as a secret. =P
Went to the airport with Terence this morning as Joanne, one of my classmate is leaving. And guess what?? I saw Mdm
Rajwant, our form teacher, with her daughter and son, Aastik. Hahahaha!! Out of my expectation!
After bidding farewell to her, we went to the Public Park aka Taman Awam. Waiting for my cousin to come, we walked on the bridge. I was scared of height but surprisingly I wasn't scared at all. Not a bit. Waiting and waiting..... Finally, my cousin arrived. Finding her was difficult as I don't really know the way. Thanks to Terence, we found her. Ate some food that her family made, including her. It was quite nice except for the chicken that my cousin made. It was okay but the gravy was salty.
We play for a while and went to Merdeka Mall. It was 12.30 pm. We choose a movie to watch. Mission Impossible!! Sounds interesting, isn't it? The movie is thrilling. I enjoy it very much. Especially when it come to the climax and you have a shoulder to lean on. =D
Around 4 something, we went back. It was a great day. I think I never had so much fun before. Happy moments flies. I'll kept it to my heart and remember it forever.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Path of life
Looking upon the sky,
Black clouds surrounding,
Feeling like it is going to cry,
And that's exactly what I'm feeling.
Recalling back what we've gone through,
While reflecting my mistakes,
The path is so rough and tough,
But I'm willing to go through it for whatever it takes.
Flowers are blooming,
Showing off every beauty and potential in them,
Everybody wants to be outstanding,
Trying everything they can.
Life is kinda hard,
Especially when we have a heart,
Because we feel,
And that's what make us kneel.
Black clouds surrounding,
Feeling like it is going to cry,
And that's exactly what I'm feeling.
Recalling back what we've gone through,
While reflecting my mistakes,
The path is so rough and tough,
But I'm willing to go through it for whatever it takes.
Flowers are blooming,
Showing off every beauty and potential in them,
Everybody wants to be outstanding,
Trying everything they can.
Life is kinda hard,
Especially when we have a heart,
Because we feel,
And that's what make us kneel.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Viewing my fb newsfeed, I saw something interesting. And thus, I realized that I'm interested in it. What is that?? Suspense.... :P hehe~~
There they go~~
There they go~~
I can feel you~~~
A sense of mystery~
Breeze of the winds~
I feel the warmth of the sun~~
Thinking of you whenever I go...
Shining brightly~~
Interested in that camera~~ Unique
Wishing that you will appear in front of me~
Waiting and waiting~ I will be waiting for you~~
After viewing these photos, I think that photography is quite interesting. Different angles, different focus, different expressions will lead to different products. Background, lightning, clothes of the model and even expressions are important. Photography is like magic~~ haha~~ The right angle will make a person looks good in the photo. Nice nice~~ If only I could own a camera..... Forget bout it~~~ It will only fall into another hand.
That's all from me~~ Bye.
Friday, September 23, 2011
An F Day~~ :D
Today is an F day. Fine, fabulous, and FRI-DAY! Everything goes well today. Start everyday with a smile and your day will eventually become better. Even though I forgot to bring my necktie today, I wasn't caught. Lucky me. :)
In the class, Terence lent me his tie. He helped me to put on the tie but then I untie the necktie. Not used to the way the necktie was tied. I retied it myself. With my unskillful hands, it failed. Bad in everything, huh? Even a primary school student could do that. By the way, he helped me tied it and put on me again. Guess what? I was touched. If you truly love someone, even if they are doing little little things for you, you will be easily touched. <3
After school, I went to the String Orchestra Club meeting. I guess there are 15 students joining including me. Walking towards 2F, I opened the window before I went in. I saw Bernice Chai. She was waving at me and asked if I knew her. I waved back and nodded my head. I went in the room and I only recognized two. There are 5 to 6 in the room. The others were absent.
A guy, to be exact, a boy named Bao Wen, is the only one who brings violin. The meeting wasn't a meeting at all. It is more like a gathering. As it was getting cold, Nicholas did something funny. He imitated Ms Lin, . Not fashion, haha~~
Monday, September 19, 2011
Imsomnia
Night, blog. Can't sleep so I decided to update you. A not-so-good-day again.
Received a phone call at 7am which means that I have to wake up to help my mum. I continued my sleep till 7.45am. Lalalalala. Time passed by. Finally, time to go home!!! Yay!! But, I'm suffering from muscle fatigue again. Painful.....
*sigh
Many things happened after I got home though. Heard some tragic news too. Don't ask me about it. I'm not going to tell a single thing. I pity that person. Let that person be X. X made me realized a lot of thing and gave me support. Thanks, X. I wish you have no regrets during the moment you were called by God. And I hope you can live longer as you still have a lot of things undone.
Things may not come out the way we expected or wanted. Everybody tried their best to survive and keep walking till the end. But somehow, I'm quite tired of walking. I almost gave up in myself. Hurt, desperate..... lalalalalala. I don't know about it. I don't wanna know. I don't know the meaning of those two words.
I only know these, strong, bold, tough. That's what I am. That's the fact. No one could ever try to change that. I won't allow it.
Looking at the time, it's 12.26 am by now. Going to sleep. Bye, blog. Thanks for making me feeling much better. Should I call my blog, Bella? I love that name. Okay, deal. Your name is Bella from this moment. Bye, Bella. Night night.
Received a phone call at 7am which means that I have to wake up to help my mum. I continued my sleep till 7.45am. Lalalalala. Time passed by. Finally, time to go home!!! Yay!! But, I'm suffering from muscle fatigue again. Painful.....
*sigh
Many things happened after I got home though. Heard some tragic news too. Don't ask me about it. I'm not going to tell a single thing. I pity that person. Let that person be X. X made me realized a lot of thing and gave me support. Thanks, X. I wish you have no regrets during the moment you were called by God. And I hope you can live longer as you still have a lot of things undone.
Things may not come out the way we expected or wanted. Everybody tried their best to survive and keep walking till the end. But somehow, I'm quite tired of walking. I almost gave up in myself. Hurt, desperate..... lalalalalala. I don't know about it. I don't wanna know. I don't know the meaning of those two words.
I only know these, strong, bold, tough. That's what I am. That's the fact. No one could ever try to change that. I won't allow it.
Looking at the time, it's 12.26 am by now. Going to sleep. Bye, blog. Thanks for making me feeling much better. Should I call my blog, Bella? I love that name. Okay, deal. Your name is Bella from this moment. Bye, Bella. Night night.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Jar of Hearts
This song is about a girl who loved a boy with every part of her and he loved her deeply but he didn't fully understand what he had when he was with her. Breaking up was the hardest decision she had to make. She could see he felt something for someone else even though he said he still loved her and would deny any feelings for the other girl. But then, he wanted to see if there was something better. After she had enough of his lies, she left him and he chose to chase the other girl, but all the while his first love was on his mind. She was still heart broken and still loved him, but hates what he did to her at the same time. Even looking at him brought memories of what they had together, and she felt as though no one could replace what she had with him. A year goes by and throughout the year the boy stays with the other girl but knows it was not anywhere near the magic he had with his first love. He comes back into her life, wanting her advice and does what he should do, wanting his first love to tell him that she still needs him. But, she has learnt not to trust him again. She will never let someone throw her away to find something better and then come to the realisation that she was the best he could have ever had and expect her to jump straight back into his arms. He hurt her so deeply and coming back into her life won't fix it. She wishes she never met him so he could never hurt her, wishing that he didn't have any control over her, and wishes she never fell in love with a liar. Who does he think he is coming back into her life after lying and choosing someone else to replace her. It will never work because of all the hurt he caused, all the lies he said and the hate created. The scar will be with her for the rest of her life but it's a reminder to her to never let someone steal a part of her again, never to be tricked into believing empty words and most importantly it is a reminder to never be tricked by him again. The scar is a learning curve so she can only improve what she has from now on and as soon as there is, doubt she will let her heart take over and end it before she gets another gash that should have been prevented from the start.
For every stitch, there's a story.
I finally fixed it, will you take it now?
Sometimes, I feel like crying until I die of exhaustion.
SCARS OF THE HEART ARE WRITING OF PAINS FROM OUR MISTAKES SO THAT WE MAY HAVE A HISTORY TO LOOK BACK UPON AS NOT TO REPEAT THE PAST.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Nothing is Impossible
Nothing is impossible?? Who created this? There's no such thing as nothing is impossible. That's the matter of fact. So true. In reality, there are things that are impossible. No matter how hard you try, how hard you strike, it will not be possible. This is reality, cruel, it is.
Avoiding the reality isn't the ideal choice. Sooner or later, one's going to face it. It may hurt, it may leave wound that could not be mend. Scars will never disappear. They will live with one till the day one's body were rotten or burned into ashes.
Every human does feel tired. Walking non-stop without resting is tiring. Not a task that could be done by human. Humans who claim that they are strong are just covering up their weakness. Humans are fragile, weak, frail, and vulnerable. No one is strong. Humans are after all humans. They do have a heart and they feel for it.
MIRACLE only happen to some, not all. Everyone does hope for miracle to happen but not all could experienced miracle. This is what life is about.
I just hope....
How I hope.....
Nothing will happen if you just hope for something.
In other words, taking things for granted, that is.
Avoiding the reality isn't the ideal choice. Sooner or later, one's going to face it. It may hurt, it may leave wound that could not be mend. Scars will never disappear. They will live with one till the day one's body were rotten or burned into ashes.
Every human does feel tired. Walking non-stop without resting is tiring. Not a task that could be done by human. Humans who claim that they are strong are just covering up their weakness. Humans are fragile, weak, frail, and vulnerable. No one is strong. Humans are after all humans. They do have a heart and they feel for it.
MIRACLE only happen to some, not all. Everyone does hope for miracle to happen but not all could experienced miracle. This is what life is about.
I just hope....
How I hope.....
Nothing will happen if you just hope for something.
In other words, taking things for granted, that is.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
^^Cooking Dash^^
By looking at the title, what do you think of? A game, of course. But the cooking dash I mentioned is not a game. It is about the way I cook. At 7 sharp, i started slicing the potatoes into slices. While waiting for an important text, I prepared the rice and slice hot dog to be cook. At 7.13pm, the important text finally came. The text goes like this "Honey, I'm back to Miri. Going to your house now." Seeing this text, by that time, i only managed to slice 3 potatoes. Thinking of a quicker way, I decided to cook fried rice as it is simpler and faster. Unfortunately, I haven't prepared the ingredients for the fried rice. Rushing, I cracked two eggs and throw the rice and slice hot dog into the wok. Not knowing what to put for the ingredients but there is no time to think. Eventually, I grab a bottle of tomato and chili sauce and mix it with the fried rice. Opening the refrigerator looking for other ingredients, there are none. Cooking the fried rice with high-speed, a text came again. "Around new Lutong." Simply grab a container and wash it with two splash of water and stuffed the fried rice into it. Then, cleaning the wok, going to fry potatoes again. But then, I didn't manage to finish cooking it. The text come again, and it says, "At the back door." Running up the stairs, grab my phy and essay book, i jump a few steps to quicken my pace. Grabbing the container, I went outside. Eyes wandering around looking for him. Suddenly WOAHHHH~~ Saw a figure and I jumped. It was HIM. Walking towards him, gave him the things he wanted and he gave me the thermos he bought at KK. Going in, feeling happy. ^_^
That's all for now. >_<
Monday, August 29, 2011
Saturday, 27th August, was the best day in my life this year. Never felt like this before. The feeling was great, splendid. The morning wasn't that great after all as I was having brass band practice. Tiresome, doing exercises continuously for one hour. After that, the percussions were to practice marching. The xylophone was damn heavy and my shoulders were aching.
In the afternoon, going to the library with Terence. Never been to Lutong's library before. It doesn't look like a library though, having hard time finding the library. The library there was better than our school's, i think? The only thing is, the library doesn't have any air-cond there. Quite humid and makes me feel sleepy.
At night. I was going for a date with Terence. Heading to gcm to watch the concert. The concert was great, marvelous!! Love it. The performance were great. How I wish I could play like them too... What I enjoyed the most were the two guys playing snare drum and Charles Pui, playing the piano.
The way the two guys played the snare drums are cool. They played the snare drums confidently and their marvelous skill impressed me. For Charles Pui, I have a strong impression on him. First, it is because his name, Charles Pui Chow Kit, sounds like one of my classmate, Nick. Second, the way he played the piano, WOW. amazing. I will never be able to play it the way how he play it. Emotions, passions, all in it. He treats the piano like his diary..
Lucky that I was able to attend the musical concert. Everything ended up better than I thought. Start everyday with a smile and your day will eventually turns better. That's all from me.
In the afternoon, going to the library with Terence. Never been to Lutong's library before. It doesn't look like a library though, having hard time finding the library. The library there was better than our school's, i think? The only thing is, the library doesn't have any air-cond there. Quite humid and makes me feel sleepy.
At night. I was going for a date with Terence. Heading to gcm to watch the concert. The concert was great, marvelous!! Love it. The performance were great. How I wish I could play like them too... What I enjoyed the most were the two guys playing snare drum and Charles Pui, playing the piano.
The way the two guys played the snare drums are cool. They played the snare drums confidently and their marvelous skill impressed me. For Charles Pui, I have a strong impression on him. First, it is because his name, Charles Pui Chow Kit, sounds like one of my classmate, Nick. Second, the way he played the piano, WOW. amazing. I will never be able to play it the way how he play it. Emotions, passions, all in it. He treats the piano like his diary..
Lucky that I was able to attend the musical concert. Everything ended up better than I thought. Start everyday with a smile and your day will eventually turns better. That's all from me.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Life?? *sigh
My life is a mess now. Not knowing what to do, or what should I do. I hope that everything will be okay, I prayed that nothing serious will happen. Worrying isn't the best thing. I have no position and no power to stand up for anyone even if I wish to. I'm sorry to cause trouble for everyone. I know sorry doesn't mean anything.
To survive in this world is not easy....Obstacles are everywhere, following and hunting you. It will never stop until the day you die. Things are hard for me, never felt like this before. I don't feel any stronger but I feel weaker and weaker, in both physical and mental. Wondering how am I going to go through this.... I'm strong but this time, I am not that strong. I cannot overcome my feelings and can't even comfort myself.
The pain in my heart made me feel so numb. Tears are shed, but it is still the same. Nothing changes. It used to be better after I cried but this time, it doesn't feel any good. It only makes me sleepy and not wanting to do anything. I felt like I'm useless, not fit to be living in this world. But, what can I do? Nothing. I felt so hopeless.
Heard from Nicholas that the audition for singing competition will be on Friday. According to what he say, only 6 people are chosen. It feels weird... Not knowing whether I get it wrong or not, not really hearing what he said. By the way, I haven't even get my lyrics memorise and haven't even start practicing it. There is always something happening everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.
Actually, I don't even feel like continuing my life. How I wish I could just end here. But if I do that, I am really stubborn. Only stubborn people do that. Besides, if I leave this world suddenly, how bout those people I cared and loved? I will miss them. I don't want to be separated forever.
The word FOREVER only exists in dictionary. It doesn't exist in our life. There's no such thing as forever. Nobody will end happily forever, it is impossible. Planning our future is useless. There's no need to plan our future. A single second could ruin all your plans. It really will.
To survive in this world is not easy....Obstacles are everywhere, following and hunting you. It will never stop until the day you die. Things are hard for me, never felt like this before. I don't feel any stronger but I feel weaker and weaker, in both physical and mental. Wondering how am I going to go through this.... I'm strong but this time, I am not that strong. I cannot overcome my feelings and can't even comfort myself.
The pain in my heart made me feel so numb. Tears are shed, but it is still the same. Nothing changes. It used to be better after I cried but this time, it doesn't feel any good. It only makes me sleepy and not wanting to do anything. I felt like I'm useless, not fit to be living in this world. But, what can I do? Nothing. I felt so hopeless.
Heard from Nicholas that the audition for singing competition will be on Friday. According to what he say, only 6 people are chosen. It feels weird... Not knowing whether I get it wrong or not, not really hearing what he said. By the way, I haven't even get my lyrics memorise and haven't even start practicing it. There is always something happening everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.
Actually, I don't even feel like continuing my life. How I wish I could just end here. But if I do that, I am really stubborn. Only stubborn people do that. Besides, if I leave this world suddenly, how bout those people I cared and loved? I will miss them. I don't want to be separated forever.
The word FOREVER only exists in dictionary. It doesn't exist in our life. There's no such thing as forever. Nobody will end happily forever, it is impossible. Planning our future is useless. There's no need to plan our future. A single second could ruin all your plans. It really will.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Sunday, 21/8
What a tiring day.... Sunday has finally come to an end. Tomorrow is Monday, yay!! I prefer weekdays rather than weekends. Helping my mother today as usual. Having a hard time doing things fast. Blame my weak muscles, every part of my body was suffering including my butt. Even sitting on a chair requires some time.
During afternoon, I get to meet someone. I think he looks smart in plain white long sleeve shirt and blue jeans. Anyway, it wasn't that fun but I felt happy. Saw his brother too. I personally thinks he looks better than his brother. He gave me something and when I get to know the content inside, I was thinking, this boy is really unique. No one will ever give me that as a present, even my parents.
Waiting for the time to get home, it finally arrives. Reach home, walking up the stairs, my legs and butt hurt so much. The song that I compose haven't even completed. Lazy to compose it these days... So lazy of me, not knowing when exactly I can finish composing that song of mine.
This is what I have gone through today. Weekends are always boring for me. It had never been interesting. Today was special, I wasn't that boring for that mere few minutes. I wonder when will weekends be more interesting........
During afternoon, I get to meet someone. I think he looks smart in plain white long sleeve shirt and blue jeans. Anyway, it wasn't that fun but I felt happy. Saw his brother too. I personally thinks he looks better than his brother. He gave me something and when I get to know the content inside, I was thinking, this boy is really unique. No one will ever give me that as a present, even my parents.
Waiting for the time to get home, it finally arrives. Reach home, walking up the stairs, my legs and butt hurt so much. The song that I compose haven't even completed. Lazy to compose it these days... So lazy of me, not knowing when exactly I can finish composing that song of mine.
This is what I have gone through today. Weekends are always boring for me. It had never been interesting. Today was special, I wasn't that boring for that mere few minutes. I wonder when will weekends be more interesting........
Saturday, August 20, 2011
When I was young, time passes slow. Everything seems like it was on slow mode. An hour seems like a week. One day, I asked my mother, "Mum, why does time passes slow?" My mum replied, "It is because you're still young. When you feel like time passes like the speed of light, it means that you're matured."
When I was in Primary 6, I feel that time passed so fast. After finished Primary 6, I'm telling myself to get better marks and score straight A's in my PMR. In a few blinks, I had finished Form 3. Going to Form 4, a thrilling sensation pricks upon me. Telling myself I'm gonna strike for the best this time.
Entering Form 4, motivating myself to study hard. Next year, I will be sitting for SPM. It was January by then, but now it is August. By the way, September is coming in no time. Time flies. They don't wait for you, never. Treasure every second of your life, don't waste it.
When I was in Primary 6, I feel that time passed so fast. After finished Primary 6, I'm telling myself to get better marks and score straight A's in my PMR. In a few blinks, I had finished Form 3. Going to Form 4, a thrilling sensation pricks upon me. Telling myself I'm gonna strike for the best this time.
Entering Form 4, motivating myself to study hard. Next year, I will be sitting for SPM. It was January by then, but now it is August. By the way, September is coming in no time. Time flies. They don't wait for you, never. Treasure every second of your life, don't waste it.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
First of all, Angeline, I would like to thank you the most. You are the one always supporting me when everyone is ignoring me and disapprove with what I have done. You are the savior of the Secret 7 group.
Second, Kim. I know you cared for me too much and I keep disappointed you. Sorry for that, but this is because you don't know the meaning of love and you never felt it before, that's why. You can describe me with anything you like, but one day, when you actually fall in love, you will understand. I will not held a grudge on you. I will still support you and stand by your side.
Sorry for not mentioning the other 4. Thanks for all who cared for me. I really appreciated it.
By the way, I am really happy now. I never felt so happy in my entire life. Thanks for all the advices that you all gave.
Being with Terence is not that bad actually. He treat me well and care for me. When I worry for him, he always told me not to worry and fake a smile to ease me. Besides, he never leave me alone no matter how busy he is. He don't make me jealous or drink ethanoic acid. This is what I like best about him.
I know there are people who talk bad about me but I will choose to ignore them. I can't control their mouths. Everything will be okay and will always be. Think positively and you will get what you want. Be optimistic, that's what I told myself.
Second, Kim. I know you cared for me too much and I keep disappointed you. Sorry for that, but this is because you don't know the meaning of love and you never felt it before, that's why. You can describe me with anything you like, but one day, when you actually fall in love, you will understand. I will not held a grudge on you. I will still support you and stand by your side.
Sorry for not mentioning the other 4. Thanks for all who cared for me. I really appreciated it.
By the way, I am really happy now. I never felt so happy in my entire life. Thanks for all the advices that you all gave.
Being with Terence is not that bad actually. He treat me well and care for me. When I worry for him, he always told me not to worry and fake a smile to ease me. Besides, he never leave me alone no matter how busy he is. He don't make me jealous or drink ethanoic acid. This is what I like best about him.
I know there are people who talk bad about me but I will choose to ignore them. I can't control their mouths. Everything will be okay and will always be. Think positively and you will get what you want. Be optimistic, that's what I told myself.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Motivating myself~~
Day by day, I am becoming lazier and lazier. Going to motivate myself to study harder and work harder on poorer subjects. However, everytime I reach home, I could not stop myself from pressing the 'on' button of my laptop.
Going to Form 5 soon and I still haven't master all the subjects. Dreaming of my future how it will be, rather than studying hard now. Should throw away this bad habit. It would only lead me to failure. If you fail to prepare, you prepare to fail, a quote from Dr. Fong, the CEO of RRSS.
Starting from tomorrow, I should study hard and complete my homework before I play.
My aim for Semester 2 exam:
1) No RED colour marks is allowed
2) My average- minimum 80%
3) Improvement in all subjects
Hope the desire for playing computer could be control. Hope that I can get flying colours for every test.
Going to Form 5 soon and I still haven't master all the subjects. Dreaming of my future how it will be, rather than studying hard now. Should throw away this bad habit. It would only lead me to failure. If you fail to prepare, you prepare to fail, a quote from Dr. Fong, the CEO of RRSS.
Starting from tomorrow, I should study hard and complete my homework before I play.
My aim for Semester 2 exam:
1) No RED colour marks is allowed
2) My average- minimum 80%
3) Improvement in all subjects
Hope the desire for playing computer could be control. Hope that I can get flying colours for every test.
Monday, August 15, 2011
Memories~~
For me, most of the memories I had are happy moments with those who I cared and loved. Sometimes, reminiscing those memories made me smile. Guess I'm smiling like crazy when I thinking bout the happy moments of the past.
Living in those memories are not good either. You will never face reality if you buried yourself in memories. Remembering the past can aid in reflecting the flaws in one self but indulging yourself in memories will drive you crazy.
Going to end here. Not writing much as I was choosing a topic randomly.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Updating my blog for the second time, I have my own reason for doing so.
I try not to feel a thing. I try to act normal. I try not to care anything. I try to smile. I try not to worry about you. I convinced myself by apprising myself that you're okay. Everything will be fine. Despite the pain, I smiled yet the emotion that appears on my face is not smiling.
I feel so lost when I'm worried. Seems like you love rain so much, huh? Maybe I am the one who started all this. Shouldn't have existed in the first place, luring trouble for you. Sorry about everything I had done, this is all I can say. I couldn't take back my words, actions and all the deeds. Sorry that I intruded your life.
I just can't stop myself from caring about you. You're a significant person for me. My mood was totally ruined, even standing upright need strenuous effort.
P.S Don't ask anything. Don't ask why, how, and what happened. I'm not going to answer. I feel really down and I need some place to let out what I feel. That is why I updated the second post.
I try not to feel a thing. I try to act normal. I try not to care anything. I try to smile. I try not to worry about you. I convinced myself by apprising myself that you're okay. Everything will be fine. Despite the pain, I smiled yet the emotion that appears on my face is not smiling.
I feel so lost when I'm worried. Seems like you love rain so much, huh? Maybe I am the one who started all this. Shouldn't have existed in the first place, luring trouble for you. Sorry about everything I had done, this is all I can say. I couldn't take back my words, actions and all the deeds. Sorry that I intruded your life.
I just can't stop myself from caring about you. You're a significant person for me. My mood was totally ruined, even standing upright need strenuous effort.
P.S Don't ask anything. Don't ask why, how, and what happened. I'm not going to answer. I feel really down and I need some place to let out what I feel. That is why I updated the second post.
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