Treasure people beside you =)

   People only realized how much they need someone when the ones that they love left them. This happen to me now. Not that I didn't treasure my time with the one I love, it's just that we always argue when we're together. Arguing, affects my emotion too deep and made me suffering mentally. When this situation happen, I wish I can be alone. I wish I need not suffer all this pain. 
   I always think that I could live without him, surely I can, but I won't be happy. Losing someone is not an easy task to cope with. When he left me, I don't know why I feel alone and felt like he has gone for a long time when he just texted me a minute ago. Maybe the way we communicate is by arguing with each other? I had always told myself that if my partner left me, I would never need a new partner anymore. Love hurts, love is pain. Why hurting yourself when you know that it hurts?
    Every human is afraid of loneliness. Everyone needs someone that could understand them. Like how I need him when I'm lonely. When he was not beside me, I had always want him to be by my side. When he was beside me, we keep arguing that I wish I could stay out of his sight. I didn't want to face the music. 
   How I wish we could be like other couples. I want us to be 'love birds' not 'angry birds'. Sometimes, I feel disappointed because when I'm feeling down, I still need to face the music. I don't need someone that could understand me, I need someone that could love me to the max. I need someone to encourage me, giving me supports and happiness. 
   Frankly, I don't need someone rich, handsome or talented. I only need someone to hug me or pat me when I'm sad but of course my tears will not stop rolling down because I feel touched. I can learn anything that my partner likes except things that I dislike such as Chinese poetry which I understand nothing. Something practical like learning how to take good pictures, sewing, cooking or even martial arts. Apparently, I can learn anything practical but not theory. Everyone has their own weakness.
 

A note for my honey: (You know who you are )  *wink*

Dear Water Elephant, (direct translate =P)

 Please don't always argue with me because of a small matter, can you? If you don't like people to treat you this way, don't treat others this way. If others make fun of you, just ignore them. Just like how I ignore those people in Primary 6. =)  We show them our ability not strength. However if what others said is the truth, don't argue with them. Still remember the nilai sikap keterbukaan? Accept those critics to improve ourselves. Don't make a fuss over something that is not worth.
  You're an intelligent boy. To be exact, a genius. You may be able to understand what people don't understand. You have to understand normal people like me. Everyone wants to be wise and intelligent. You said you're poor. People make fun of you because you're poor. That is because they don't understand the feeling of being poor. Just like how you don't understand the feeling of stupid people.
  As you said, life is fair. It is just that the mixture is different. You're a mature guy now. Be optimistic and discard all your pessimistic mind. It's time to turn over a new leaf. I really do care about you and love you.
  Honey, I'm waiting for you to come back. =) And I realized how much I need you. As the saying goes, absence makes the heart grew fonder. <3

                                                                                                                                     Your love,
                                                                                                                                     Water Pig  <3

        I had always wish to become a better person, living my own happy life, doing stuff that I loved 
and try  to help others. Unfortunately, my wish just don't come true. I wish to become a successful 
person in the future and live a happy life. 

        The world has changed. Everything change. The society nowadays are materialistic. Everything is 
associated with money. Money, money, money. Even woo-ing a girl needs money. Is wealth that 
important compared to our health and happiness? The moral of the society is deteriorated although our 
country has high technology and is far ahead compare to some country. 

    For me, I just want to live a simple life and find a job that I loved. Seriously, I don't really care if 
my partner is not as wealthy as me or can't afford to buy things for me. I just need someone to love me 
and care for me. When I am feeling down, I wish to be cheered rather than facing the music from my 
partner. 

    Today, I heard an old chinese song from the radio. The song was quite famous but I know the 
lyrics only today.  

          你总是心太软心太软, 独自一个人流泪到天亮, 你无怨无悔的爱着那个人,我知道你根本 
没那麽坚强你总是心太软, 心太软把所有问题都自己扛,相爱总是简单相处太难,不是你的就别
再勉强.

         
        This song is somehow makes me feel better when I sang it out loud. I'll stop here. =) Will be 
writing another post soon. 

       
        

   

A memorable day

Yesterday was so much fun. I wonder when can I have so much fun again. I never had an outing with my friends till I reached Form 4. Friends are important in our life. They make us smile when we feel down. How I wish I could hang out with my friends whenever I feel like doing so.


 Yesterday, I was going to the beach with Terence, Eiwenne, Florenno and two girls from St. Jo whom I didn't know. We were taking pictures in order to complete our folio. 


After taking pictures, we played at the beach. It was suggested by me beforehand. Hahaha... Playful girl. =P  I love playing water because I'm so-called 'water'. Nah, just joking. =D  I was glad that Terence was coming because I had never been to beach with him. Besides, he's the only one who's playing water with me. The others just play some games on the beach. Example:

                                                       Teng-teng/ketinting in BM
The sea water is very salty. I drank quite a large amount of sea water. My hands and legs were painful when I played with the sea water. However, I ignored it because I was having lots of fun. The strong tides of the wave made both of us playful. We tried to resist the force acting on us. 

We're getting tired after playing and splashing each other. Went to the toilet for a shower. Fortunately, the place for showering is not disgusting. I'm fear of lizards faeces. Yucks.... I have a hard time washing my clothes as it was covered with mud.


I'm stop here. Not having much time to update my blog.