Updating my blog for the second time, I have my own reason for doing so.
 
  I try not to feel a thing. I try to act normal. I try not to care anything. I try to smile. I try not to worry about you. I convinced myself by apprising myself that you're okay. Everything will be fine. Despite the pain, I smiled yet the emotion that appears on my face is not smiling. 


 I feel so lost when I'm worried. Seems like you love rain so much, huh? Maybe I am the one who started all this. Shouldn't have existed in the first place, luring trouble for you. Sorry about everything I had done, this is all I can say. I couldn't take back my words, actions and all the deeds. Sorry that I intruded your life.


 I just can't stop myself from caring about you. You're a significant person for me. My mood was totally ruined, even standing upright need strenuous effort. 


 P.S Don't ask anything. Don't ask why, how, and what happened. I'm not going to answer. I feel really down and I need some place to let out what I feel. That is why I updated the second post.