Smile Smile Smile

 Smile, this is what everyone told me when I'm down. The smile word seems like it is smiling. Be happy, that is what my friends say to me when I'm emo. Smile wasn't an easy thing to do if u're not happy. If someone is too tired to give you a smile, leave one of your own. No one needs a smile as much as those who have none to give.

 Recently, I discover something about myself. I wonder why I always laugh....But then, I discover the reason on 4th August 2011. It was merely a habit since young. I can still laugh even I was hurt inside.  Laugh and smile is the best shield to cover your sadness. 

Laugh too much people call you crazy. There's no wrong with laughing. I know fake smile isn't good but being sad in front of people doesn't look good either. Everytime I feel down, friends tend to comfort me and tell me everything will be okay. This makes me feel touched and heavy black clouds will start to gather. That is what I wanted to avoid. 

To those who care for me, thank you very much. I appreciate it. Even I'm not okay, I will still be fine. Although I always say I wanted to commit suicide, I will never do it. I haven't prepared to live in the other side of the world. I don't want to lose my lovely friends. Most importantly, I don't want to spend my life in hell.

I will always be strong because thing will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever!!!