25-12-2011

 Today is a special day, where people say Jesus was born on this day. But somehow, it doesn't feel special to me because every day is special to me. This is what someone told me. Every day in our life is a special day. =D

 Something bad happened to me in the morning though. I could say that it is the worst and the best day of my life. I made someone waited for half an hour. I couldn't wake up as I was too tired, even my alarm doesn't wake me up. When I wake up, everything was in a rush. Of course, I feel guilty, really. I hate people waiting for me. And somehow, something that never pop up in my mind occured. Let just keep it as a secret. =P

Went to the airport with Terence this morning as Joanne, one of my classmate is leaving. And guess what?? I saw Mdm  
Rajwant, our form teacher, with her daughter and son, Aastik. Hahahaha!! Out of my expectation! 

After bidding farewell to her, we went to the Public Park aka Taman Awam. Waiting for my cousin to come, we walked on the bridge. I was scared of height but surprisingly I wasn't scared at all. Not a bit. Waiting and waiting..... Finally, my cousin arrived. Finding her was difficult as I don't really know the way. Thanks to Terence, we found her. Ate some food that her family made, including her. It was quite nice except for the chicken that my cousin made. It was okay but the gravy was salty. 

We play for a while and went to Merdeka Mall. It was 12.30 pm. We choose a movie to watch. Mission Impossible!! Sounds interesting, isn't it? The movie is thrilling. I enjoy it very much. Especially when it come to the climax and you have a shoulder to lean on. =D

Around 4 something, we went back. It was a great day. I think I never had so much fun before. Happy moments flies. I'll kept it to my heart and remember it forever.

Path of life

 Looking upon the sky,
 Black clouds surrounding,
Feeling like it is going to cry,
 And that's exactly what I'm feeling.


Recalling back what we've gone through,
While reflecting my mistakes,
The path is so rough and tough,
But I'm willing to go through it for whatever it takes.


Flowers are blooming,
Showing off every beauty and potential in them,
Everybody wants to be outstanding,
Trying everything they can.


Life is kinda hard,
Especially when we have a heart,
Because we feel,
And that's what make us kneel.

      Viewing my fb newsfeed, I saw something interesting. And thus, I realized that I'm interested in it. What is that?? Suspense.... :P hehe~~ 


There they go~~ 

I can feel you~~~

 A sense of mystery~

Breeze of the winds~ 

I feel the warmth of the sun~~

Thinking of you whenever I go...

Shining brightly~~

Interested in that camera~~ Unique

Wishing that you will appear in front of me~

Waiting and waiting~ I will be waiting for you~~

After viewing these photos, I think that photography is quite interesting. Different angles, different focus, different expressions will lead to different products. Background, lightning, clothes of the model and even expressions are important. Photography is like magic~~ haha~~ The right angle will make a person looks good in the photo. Nice nice~~ If only I could own a camera..... Forget bout it~~~ It will only fall into another hand.

That's all from me~~ Bye. 

An F Day~~ :D

Today is an F day. Fine, fabulous, and FRI-DAY! Everything goes well today. Start everyday with a smile and your day will eventually become better. Even though I forgot to bring my necktie today, I wasn't caught. Lucky me. :)  

In the class, Terence lent me his tie. He helped me to put on the tie but then I untie the necktie. Not used to the way the necktie was tied. I retied it myself. With my unskillful hands, it failed. Bad in everything, huh? Even a primary school student could do that. By the way, he helped me tied it and put on me again. Guess what? I was touched. If you truly love someone, even if they are doing little little things for you, you will be easily touched. <3 

After school, I went to the String Orchestra Club meeting. I guess there are 15 students joining including me. Walking towards 2F, I opened the window before I went in. I saw Bernice Chai. She was waving at me and asked if I knew her. I waved back and nodded my head. I went in the room and I only recognized two. There are 5 to 6 in the room. The others were absent. 

A guy, to be exact, a boy named Bao Wen, is the only one who brings violin. The meeting wasn't a meeting at all. It is more like a gathering. As it was getting cold, Nicholas did something funny. He imitated Ms Lin, . Not fashion, haha~~ 

I didn't regret joining the club. First of all, I had fun getting along with my new friends. They were so friendly. I wonder if I can be that friendly too. Blame my personality, I only talk a lot when my mind is full of ideas. I get along well with Bernice, Sharon, and Bao Wen. Bernice look better in person and yeahh, she's pretty! :D She's so friendly!! XDXD As for Sharon, her sight reading amazed me. She took a book of score which is Bao Wen's and played it smoothly. She's also very friendly too! She even hold my hands... Haha~~ And for Bao Wen, his eyes look like a dog's. No offense, it is true. XP He told me many jokes. He's joining Drama Club and it suits him. He has the potential in imitating the voices of people. 

Get to the main point, I actually TOUCHED and  PLAYED a violin!!!!! WOOHOO!!!! I asked Nicholas to teach me the violin fingerings. Bao Wen taught me the fingerings to play Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. At first, I played it quite rough. But then, it gets smoother. Hehe~~ Just played for around 10 to 15 mins. Those who know how to play violin complimented me!! They said my learning skills were amazing. By the way, Bao Wen only taught me one time. ECSTATIC!!!~~~ 

It was 3.30 pm. Went back home after 30 mins of waiting for the car. That's all. :)))))

Imsomnia

Night, blog. Can't sleep so I decided to update you. A not-so-good-day again.

Received a phone call at 7am which means that I have to wake up to help my mum. I continued my sleep till 7.45am. Lalalalala. Time passed by. Finally, time to go home!!! Yay!! But, I'm suffering from muscle fatigue again. Painful..... 

*sigh
Many things happened after I got home though. Heard some tragic news too. Don't ask me about it. I'm not going to tell a single thing. I pity that person. Let that person be X. X made me realized a lot of thing and gave me support. Thanks, X. I wish you have no regrets during the moment you were called by God. And I hope you can live longer as you still have a lot of things undone.

Things may not come out the way we expected or wanted. Everybody tried their best to survive and keep walking till the end. But somehow, I'm quite tired of walking. I almost gave up in myself. Hurt, desperate..... lalalalalala. I don't know about it. I don't wanna know. I don't know the meaning of those two words. 

 I only know these, strong, bold, tough. That's what I am. That's the fact. No one could ever try to change that. I won't allow it. 

Looking at the time, it's 12.26 am by now. Going to sleep. Bye, blog. Thanks for making me feeling much better. Should I call my blog, Bella? I love that name. Okay, deal. Your name is Bella from this moment. Bye, Bella. Night night. 

Jar of Hearts

Recently, I keep hearing a song "Jar of Hearts" from the radio. I love it so much!! Love the lyrics and the song. 
This song is about a girl who loved a boy with every part of her and he loved her deeply but he didn't fully understand what he had when he was with her. Breaking up was the hardest decision she had to make. She could see he felt something for someone else even though he said he still loved her and would deny any feelings for the other girl. But then, he wanted to see if there was something better. After she had enough of his lies, she left him and he chose to chase the other girl, but all the while his first love was on his mind. She was still heart broken and still loved him, but hates what he did to her at the same time. Even looking at him brought memories of what they had together, and she felt as though no one could replace what she had with him. A year goes by and throughout the year the boy stays with the other girl but knows it was not anywhere near the magic he had with his first love. He comes back into her life, wanting her advice and does what he should do, wanting his first love to tell him that she still needs him. But, she has learnt not to trust him again. She will never let someone throw her away to find something better and then come to the realisation that she was the best he could have ever had and expect her to jump straight back into his arms. He hurt her so deeply and coming back into her life won't fix it. She wishes she never met him so he could never hurt her, wishing that he didn't have any control over her, and wishes she never fell in love with a liar. Who does he think he is coming back into her life after lying and choosing someone else to replace her. It will never work because of all the hurt he caused, all the lies he said and the hate created. The scar will be with her for the rest of her life but it's a reminder to her to never let someone steal a part of her again, never to be tricked into believing empty words and most importantly it is a reminder to never be tricked by him again. The scar is a learning curve so she can only improve what she has from now on and as soon as there is, doubt she will let her heart take over and end it before she gets another gash that should have been prevented from the start.

For every stitch, there's a story.

I finally fixed it, will you take it now?

Sometimes, I feel like crying until I die of exhaustion.

                  If I can choose to survive or to die, I rather die. I'm tired. 

SCARS OF THE HEART ARE WRITING OF PAINS FROM OUR MISTAKES SO THAT WE MAY HAVE A HISTORY TO LOOK BACK UPON AS NOT TO REPEAT THE PAST.

Nothing is Impossible

Nothing is impossible?? Who created this? There's no such thing as nothing is impossible. That's the matter of fact. So true. In reality, there are things that are impossible. No matter how hard you try, how hard you strike, it will not be possible. This is reality, cruel, it is. 


Avoiding the reality isn't the ideal choice. Sooner or later, one's going to face it. It may hurt, it may leave wound that could not be mend. Scars will never disappear. They will live with one till the day one's body were rotten or burned into ashes. 


Every human does feel tired. Walking non-stop without resting is tiring. Not a task that could be done by human. Humans who claim that they are strong are just covering up their weakness. Humans are fragile, weak, frail, and vulnerable. No one is strong. Humans are after all humans. They do have a heart and they feel for it. 


MIRACLE only happen to some, not all. Everyone does hope for miracle to happen but not all could experienced miracle.  This is what life is about. 


I just hope.... 


How I hope.....


Nothing will happen if you just hope for something. 


In other words, taking things for granted, that is.