Today, the percussions were instructed to arrive the school at 7 am. This was because there was a small test going on. The examiners were Xiao Wei, Alvin Ling and Ah Loi. We were asked to stay in a classroom while waiting our turn. When it was finally my turn, I played it seriously. Unfortunately, I sucks in playing semiquaver notes and not very good in sight reading. The exam ended at 9 something. The time has finally come and we were ask to stand in a straight line.
Final results: I get 62.33%. Quite happy as there are some who fail the test. Their comments: I am quite good because I once join band but after that i quit. When I rejoin, I was not in hornline but percussion. Besides, I catch up fast and they said they like it. My weakness: My footsteps are too heavy, my semiquaver notes are not constant.
Back home, feeling tired. My mood gradually change from time to time. In the morning, I was feeling happy but in the evening, i felt quite down. Feel guilty for something I had done, but it is just too late.
Not wanting to describe more, not going to details, this matter will be buried deep in my heart.
Welcome to the world full of STARS~~~
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Best thing in life??
What is the best thing in my life? Guess music is the best thing of my life... It never disappoints me and is a part of my life. Whenever I'm down, music is always there with me. Whenever I'm sad, listening to songs make me feel better.
When I'm down, I feel like singing. I would choose a song which lyrics is almost the same as what am I feeling that time. But when I feel miserable, I don't feel like doing anything even listening to songs. At this time, I would like to be left alone in a room without any sound or noise.
Thinking about music, I think I'm going to write a song for myself. I can create lyrics that is similar to what I feel. Singing a song compose by myself sounds great.
When I'm down, I feel like singing. I would choose a song which lyrics is almost the same as what am I feeling that time. But when I feel miserable, I don't feel like doing anything even listening to songs. At this time, I would like to be left alone in a room without any sound or noise.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
^^~~Dreams~~^^
What are dreams? Dreams are images that form in our mind and are not real. Dreams are usually beautiful, marvelous and delightful. I believe that every human has their own dreams, so do I. It's just a pity that my dreams never come true.
Being involved in activities that I enjoy had been my dream but it seems like it will never come true. I enjoyed playing basketball but my father opposed it. Told him i want to learn table-tennis instead of playing basketball yet he said that it is unsuitable for girls.
When I bring up the idea of learning violin, my mother told me, learning those will not bring any benefits to your future. If you want to learn, wait till you get older. The idea of learning guitar comes to my mind but my mother said it is not pleasant for girl to play guitar.
Every hour, every minute, every second, I'm gradually getting older and older. The thought of attending dancing class and art class seems impossible for me. Excuses will only be given to me. How I wish that my dreams can come true.....
Being involved in activities that I enjoy had been my dream but it seems like it will never come true. I enjoyed playing basketball but my father opposed it. Told him i want to learn table-tennis instead of playing basketball yet he said that it is unsuitable for girls.
When I bring up the idea of learning violin, my mother told me, learning those will not bring any benefits to your future. If you want to learn, wait till you get older. The idea of learning guitar comes to my mind but my mother said it is not pleasant for girl to play guitar.
Every hour, every minute, every second, I'm gradually getting older and older. The thought of attending dancing class and art class seems impossible for me. Excuses will only be given to me. How I wish that my dreams can come true.....
There can be miracles,
When you believe,
Though hope is frail,
It's hard to kill,
Who knows that miracles,
You can achieve,
When you believe.
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Tears? Hurt? Pain?
When a person cries, people comforted them by telling them that teardrops are precious. If teardrops are really precious, why do they roll down so easily from our eyes? There are a few reasons that make tears roll down.
1. They feel extremely happy.
2. They were touched.
3. They were acting.
4. They were heartbroken.
5. They feel depressed.
Teardrops from my heart is rolling down my cheeks. What makes the teardrops of mine rolls down? Maybe I was happy, touched, definitely not acting *i can't do that* , heartbroken, or depressed... For me, TEARDROPS=HURT.
HURT....Hmm... this word sounds familiar to me. It seems like I have known it since a long time ago. It has been a part of me few years ago. Now, it don't want to leave me. It sticks with me and created a strong bond between.
Being hurt physically is always better than being hurt inside. I rather get scars all over my body. Wounds in the heart are hard to cure and is uncurable. No aspirin or painkillers could be taken to reduce the pain so let alone healing it.
Every human know what is the meaning of pain and had been through it. The difference is that the pain they are suffering are not the same. Some may be suffering from pain physically while others is suffering from the inside.
Those sad eyes that u're looking into....U never know what they are thinking about.....
They had always hoped for a miracle. They wanted to be happy like others.
1. They feel extremely happy.
2. They were touched.
3. They were acting.
4. They were heartbroken.
5. They feel depressed.
Teardrops from my heart is rolling down my cheeks. What makes the teardrops of mine rolls down? Maybe I was happy, touched, definitely not acting *i can't do that* , heartbroken, or depressed... For me, TEARDROPS=HURT.
HURT....Hmm... this word sounds familiar to me. It seems like I have known it since a long time ago. It has been a part of me few years ago. Now, it don't want to leave me. It sticks with me and created a strong bond between.
Being hurt physically is always better than being hurt inside. I rather get scars all over my body. Wounds in the heart are hard to cure and is uncurable. No aspirin or painkillers could be taken to reduce the pain so let alone healing it.
Every human know what is the meaning of pain and had been through it. The difference is that the pain they are suffering are not the same. Some may be suffering from pain physically while others is suffering from the inside.
Those sad eyes that u're looking into....U never know what they are thinking about.....
Friday, August 5, 2011
Smile Smile Smile
Smile, this is what everyone told me when I'm down. The smile word seems like it is smiling. Be happy, that is what my friends say to me when I'm emo. Smile wasn't an easy thing to do if u're not happy. If someone is too tired to give you a smile, leave one of your own. No one needs a smile as much as those who have none to give.
Recently, I discover something about myself. I wonder why I always laugh....But then, I discover the reason on 4th August 2011. It was merely a habit since young. I can still laugh even I was hurt inside. Laugh and smile is the best shield to cover your sadness.
Laugh too much people call you crazy. There's no wrong with laughing. I know fake smile isn't good but being sad in front of people doesn't look good either. Everytime I feel down, friends tend to comfort me and tell me everything will be okay. This makes me feel touched and heavy black clouds will start to gather. That is what I wanted to avoid.
To those who care for me, thank you very much. I appreciate it. Even I'm not okay, I will still be fine. Although I always say I wanted to commit suicide, I will never do it. I haven't prepared to live in the other side of the world. I don't want to lose my lovely friends. Most importantly, I don't want to spend my life in hell.
I will always be strong because thing will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever!!!
Recently, I discover something about myself. I wonder why I always laugh....But then, I discover the reason on 4th August 2011. It was merely a habit since young. I can still laugh even I was hurt inside. Laugh and smile is the best shield to cover your sadness.
Laugh too much people call you crazy. There's no wrong with laughing. I know fake smile isn't good but being sad in front of people doesn't look good either. Everytime I feel down, friends tend to comfort me and tell me everything will be okay. This makes me feel touched and heavy black clouds will start to gather. That is what I wanted to avoid.
To those who care for me, thank you very much. I appreciate it. Even I'm not okay, I will still be fine. Although I always say I wanted to commit suicide, I will never do it. I haven't prepared to live in the other side of the world. I don't want to lose my lovely friends. Most importantly, I don't want to spend my life in hell.
I will always be strong because thing will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever!!!
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Should I follow my own heart or choose to betray it..... Hmmm........
Some told me to follow my own heart, some told me to think of the future. To decide is kinda hard, not just ordinary hard but real hard. If I choose to follow my own heart, I will be happy for now but not sure bout my future. If I choose to betray my own heart, I will suffer a lot. Who says I never think of my future? I did. Who says I never try to get out the quicksand I'm in? I did. But no one knows. My action can't convinced them, i know that.
Those sad eyes could be seen when there's no one around. Not everyone knows and understands. This could not be understand easily, it is more harder than subjects in school. Who don't want to be happy? Everyone hopes to be happy and end with a happy ending. I had always follow my heart because I just want to cheer myself up. Is that wrong? Maybe it is but there's no other way for me to cheer myself up unless I follow it. Should I blame my heart then?
I don't want to end up like this. It hurts. Everytime there is a scar, it won't heal completely. Slowly, the scar will become more bigger and obvious. At that time, I will regret. This is not anyone's fault as no one could predict what will happen next. There's no time machine to bring you to the future to see what will happen if you take this path. No device to let you know whether you are walking the right path or not.
No one knows what is waiting ahead of them. The path they choose may lead them to happiness or may ruin their whole life. Not a single person know. Everyone is trying their best to be happy.
Some told me to follow my own heart, some told me to think of the future. To decide is kinda hard, not just ordinary hard but real hard. If I choose to follow my own heart, I will be happy for now but not sure bout my future. If I choose to betray my own heart, I will suffer a lot. Who says I never think of my future? I did. Who says I never try to get out the quicksand I'm in? I did. But no one knows. My action can't convinced them, i know that.
Those sad eyes could be seen when there's no one around. Not everyone knows and understands. This could not be understand easily, it is more harder than subjects in school. Who don't want to be happy? Everyone hopes to be happy and end with a happy ending. I had always follow my heart because I just want to cheer myself up. Is that wrong? Maybe it is but there's no other way for me to cheer myself up unless I follow it. Should I blame my heart then?
I don't want to end up like this. It hurts. Everytime there is a scar, it won't heal completely. Slowly, the scar will become more bigger and obvious. At that time, I will regret. This is not anyone's fault as no one could predict what will happen next. There's no time machine to bring you to the future to see what will happen if you take this path. No device to let you know whether you are walking the right path or not.
No one knows what is waiting ahead of them. The path they choose may lead them to happiness or may ruin their whole life. Not a single person know. Everyone is trying their best to be happy.
Monday, August 1, 2011
=+^^~~Friends~~^^+=
Life can be interesting but sometimes it can be so dull that you actually felt bored and is getting tired of living. If my life could be more interesting, i will never think negatively. Never ever.
As a matter of fact, friends can make our life more interesting. Friends are hard to find especially the good ones. However, i feel so lucky to get to know all my friends. Some are cute, some are funny, some are short-tempered, clever, active, expert in playing comp.games, and etc...I have six sisters, one good friend, and one best friend.
The first one, Angeline, my eldest sister, is a very clever girl and an expert in dancing. She's a very nice girl and anyone who gets to own her will feel very lucky. She's tall, nice, cute, good-looking, clever.....
Here comes the second one, Jun Ni, my second sister. She's also very clever but a lil' bit crazy. She is quite straight-forward and the way she talks sometimes hurt other people and she didn't even realise it. Somehow, it is actually not bad, because i rather get hurt by truth than happy to hear all lies.
Third one follow by Anthonia. She likes to daydream anywhere and anytime. Her English are marvellous but her Chinese are moderate. She looks pretty when she is smiling and she has something common with me. We both like to hear Korea songs and watch dancing videos.
Hehe, hear comes The LordVanKim, Kimberley. Remember there's an E between L and Y. This is my fourth sister and she is quite clever too! Her skills in playing computer games are ABNORMAL. Although she is as skinny as a pole, her strength are extraordinary. Do not underestimated her, if not, you won't live long.
The fifth sister, Eleen the penguin!! If you do not know her actual age, you will think that she is a kindergarten kid. When she smile, the ice-cream will just melt right away. From the way i'm calling her, you can have the impression that she is cute. Penguins are cute so do her. You won't laugh at her when she is not talking but you will definitely laugh when she opened her mouth. One word to describe: Humorous
The sixth sister which is known as magnet, Cj Bong. She is a very cute little girl and laugh everytime, everywhere and almost every period in school. She is quite clever too and likes to disturb other people. Her laughs are natural and real. A caring person and a very responsible class monitor. She likes to gossip and busybody about other people's stuff but that shows out her 特真。
Hmm...next, a good friend of mine. This good friend, unlike others, gave me a feeling that I never felt before. Good or not, I don't know, but I felt lucky to have this friend. This friend is very clever and wonderful in teaching although this person never want to admit it.
Lastly, my best friend, Eiwenne the Law. She had been my only best friend since Form 1. We always go crazy together especially in Form 1 and 2. We were like small kids fighting but as we grow older, we do not run around the school like old times. We are more matured now, but not so matured. We still play kid's game like rock, paper and scissors and we actually have so much fun playing that. To describe her, she is quite black and has never ever been whiter that me. *except that im in the sun for hours
In a nutshell, these are people who are important for me. There are some I didn't go into details and not wanting others to know how I actually feel. There are some other friends who are also important to me but i did not mentioned as these 8 friends are the most important in my friend and family list. I am sorry if I had type something that you don't like but this is how I feel. THE END!!!!
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