I always think that I could live without him, surely I can, but I won't be happy. Losing someone is not an easy task to cope with. When he left me, I don't know why I feel alone and felt like he has gone for a long time when he just texted me a minute ago. Maybe the way we communicate is by arguing with each other? I had always told myself that if my partner left me, I would never need a new partner anymore. Love hurts, love is pain. Why hurting yourself when you know that it hurts?
Every human is afraid of loneliness. Everyone needs someone that could understand them. Like how I need him when I'm lonely. When he was not beside me, I had always want him to be by my side. When he was beside me, we keep arguing that I wish I could stay out of his sight. I didn't want to face the music.
How I wish we could be like other couples. I want us to be 'love birds' not 'angry birds'. Sometimes, I feel disappointed because when I'm feeling down, I still need to face the music. I don't need someone that could understand me, I need someone that could love me to the max. I need someone to encourage me, giving me supports and happiness.
Frankly, I don't need someone rich, handsome or talented. I only need someone to hug me or pat me when I'm sad but of course my tears will not stop rolling down because I feel touched. I can learn anything that my partner likes except things that I dislike such as Chinese poetry which I understand nothing. Something practical like learning how to take good pictures, sewing, cooking or even martial arts. Apparently, I can learn anything practical but not theory. Everyone has their own weakness.
A note for my honey: (You know who you are ) *wink*
Dear Water Elephant, (direct translate =P)
Please don't always argue with me because of a small matter, can you? If you don't like people to treat you this way, don't treat others this way. If others make fun of you, just ignore them. Just like how I ignore those people in Primary 6. =) We show them our ability not strength. However if what others said is the truth, don't argue with them. Still remember the nilai sikap keterbukaan? Accept those critics to improve ourselves. Don't make a fuss over something that is not worth.
You're an intelligent boy. To be exact, a genius. You may be able to understand what people don't understand. You have to understand normal people like me. Everyone wants to be wise and intelligent. You said you're poor. People make fun of you because you're poor. That is because they don't understand the feeling of being poor. Just like how you don't understand the feeling of stupid people.
As you said, life is fair. It is just that the mixture is different. You're a mature guy now. Be optimistic and discard all your pessimistic mind. It's time to turn over a new leaf. I really do care about you and love you.
Honey, I'm waiting for you to come back. =) And I realized how much I need you. As the saying goes, absence makes the heart grew fonder. <3
Your love,
Water Pig <3
